This year has been a very transformative year for a reemerging magus that is myself. And all of it has all come from me going deeper into the practice of magick and mysticism. I have gone through many initiations, none of which were pre-packaged rites of passages such as in fraternal organizations. I am not a member of any secret association, as I favor solitary spiritual practice, and something about the way in which the ancient wisdom says, "Know Thy Self", not know thy neighbor, really resonates with me. To anyone who has achieved some transformation in the practice of internal alchemy, it is known that the more you know about yourself, the more you will know about others---the masses of course, insist on fulfilling this process in reverse.
A bit about myself though... I have gone from a, "I can't fuck with that dude, he ain't eating right" to a "Do what thou wilt... who the fuck cares about moral standards; what someone is eating or whatever---some shit that doesn’t even exist or register in the higher realms of chaos consciousness." For me personally, plant-based eating is optimum, and I intend to stick to this health plan for the bulk of my human experience, but I no longer, as so many faithfuls of the vegan mafia, subscribe to the notion of physical food being the crown of spirituality, a rather disturbing misinformed notion. But what I have noticed in my own thinking in the early periods of my consciousness journey, and with others, is that often when a new way of life is accessed, though the playing field will have evolved, the same old rules remain because the mind has not been emptied of its superstitions and moral-stipulations; a process requiring a breakdown of ones narrow views of law and principle.
A great deal of my growth has come via study of the Tree of Death(i.e. the Tree of Knowledge or Qliphoth). The majority of European occultists who write about, has written about or mentions the Qliphoth, dismiss it as a useless waste of "shells" concealing the "true light" that is the Tree of Life. According to them, the Qliphoth is "evil"--- funny how occultists go back to church when the scene gets a bit darker. Evil in truth is a misrepresented concept, having beneath its veil many mysteries concerning the essence of consciousness, but that will get me off topic so I will cover that in a later article.
What I will tell you about those who write or speak dismissively about the Qliphoth is: 1. They are either party to an agenda to suppress information i.e. under arbitrary oath and thus seeking to prevent you from obtaining light which they themselves do not even have, or 2. They are Pie---Sweet---Fruity---Funny---Spooky---Scurred; having yet to transcend the shells of their medieval superstitions, or in very rare cases, they are concerned for the mental health of the potentially premature magician who engages such occult phenomena without an understanding of what exactly she or he is getting into.
But regardless of that, there are many benefits for the Magician to be acquired in the study and corresponding engagements with Daath.
Daath, is the 11th "hidden" Sephira on the Qabalistic Tree of Life and its meaning from Hebrew is Knowledge. It is largely ignored and often times left entirely out of the diagram of the Tree of Life by occultists and Rabbis alike. However, this sort of knowledge to which Daath is referring is dual: Knowledge via Intellect, or Gnosis via Spirit. The Ace of Swords in the Thoth deck illustrate the process of the Ruach (spirit, sometimes called Divine Intellect) being illumined by the light which is shrouded in darkness, but as you go deeper into this darkness called Daath, that mere intellectual knowledge becomes gnosis---spiritual insight and intuitive knowing, as after having journeyed into the abyss, you will have learned some valuable truths about your world; you will have seen the limitations of logic and reasoning firsthand, thus allowing your innate knowing to rise to the surface of your mind and operate actively and intelligently as it assists you towards the ultimate realization(Self Illumination). Daath is the gateway into that realm which shows you all the secrets of the universe; what has been hidden from you, and what you are hiding from your own self. The test is if you will make a choice to transcend your fears of your self, and become the perfect gnostic. Understanding these ideas by intellect alone is not sufficient to bring about a total transformation, and this is why the practice of meditation, incantation and invocation come into serious play, because in doing such you are actively fusing these ideas with your subconscious mind, thus causing the forces of whatever formula being invoked or meditated upon to work with or for you in a spiritually beneficial way.
Such has been the process for me. And the journey continues. One thing which is for certain is that I will always persist in seeking "new" ways to attain more light and understanding of myself. I parenthesis the word new because it is not necessarily that whatever avenue I take or method I enlist has not been known or used prior, but that it is an experience or experiment to which as far as my conscious mind is concerned, I had not encountered. It is a magician's work to know the ins-and-outs of his mind and how mind is reflected in the world around him, as the very notion of being a victim is truly a juvenile and laughable idea when the Hermetic Principles are understood. Though the magician probably incurs the greatest suffering of all, because to know something is an illusion, yet reconcile with it is no easy task, there is a secret joy in knowing that it is all a learning experience and the power is not merely within but it is, and it is the only Reality that truly is.
1. The Gnostics, Jacques Laccariere
2. The Elements of the Qabalah, Will Parfitt
3. The Hermetica, Timothy Freke & Peter Gandy
4. 777 and other Qabalistic Writings, Aliester Crowley
5. The Tree of Life (A study in Magic), Israel Regardie